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Julian Sara Joseph

Realizations that dawned.

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Everyone out there is definitely on a path to progress/self-improvement/career -development in this week. So many resolutions and planners bought and doodled in. Before I too get into that, I'd like to share a few hallelujah moments.  

1. I have realized how women (atleast Indian mallu women) "expect bad things to happen to them". 

 "I'll end up getting married to a bad guy"

 "I'll never be promoted!"

 "I'll be stuck in this place forever"

Such a mindset, be it for men or women, will do us no good. Our thoughts can shape our lives. Proof? Here you go!

 

2. Some people are just incapable of grasping what your words mean. 

"You feel me?" 

"Do you get it?"

There are several such instances when people can fail to understand what you say, they hear what they want to hear. Always.

 

3. Never compromise on your relationships because of money you owe people or small fights. 

"You don't need to pay me back"

"I don't really care what you think of this color"

People do care. People remember what you say and give and not give. Don't you ever think otherwise.  

Julian Sara Joseph

Wait a minute

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As a Church-going child is taught to always start her day by 'Reading the Bible', today,  I couldn't help but notice what lines I had highlighted over the past 18 years. Lines where I tried to put myself in the Author's/Psalmist's shoes.

(Context: so there are 66 books in the Bible I read, and Psalms is a book of songs/poems mostly written by King David either to praise God or cry his heart out praying for deliverance from his enemies! ) 

        I had unknowingly compared my life's stressful situations to the narrator's day at the battlefield or deathbed, and then after my mind was sure that I was exactly in the same position myself, I then sought comfort in the fact that if the author was rescued from all his misery and troubles, so would I!

It is very similar to how when we watch movies, we try to see our lives through the eyes of the characters, and compare our reactions to similar scenarios in real life.

Are we all just living in a space of illusions and mis-interpreted stories? Is it time we write our own Psalms?

King David was fighting other kings for land, we fight technological addictions and fake relationships! 

Now I understand not everyone can write books/Psalms and that one can learn a lot from reading a book by someone who has made the same choices in life, someone who has already faltered. Ah, well this quote by Eleanor Roosevelt comes to my mind: 

“Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.”

This is the only way I can justify the habit of millions of Christians reading the same books/psalms every day. 

This is the reason I guess, art exists in the world, we do things, make mistakes, and we share this with others, through plays, books, songs, movies, or Psalms. Homo Sapiens came this far by the transfer of knowledge. This will go on. 

Julian Sara Joseph

Coffee brews code

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The smell of hot coffee on my desk, or any other desk surely awakens the tired senses, 

peeling my eyelids open to find some sensible trace in the endless list of error-logs printed on my screen

The hand of cards, karma would deal out in the form of production bugs even 2 years later are worried about with a sense of impending doom. 

Hunched backs, receding hairlines, spectacled eyes redened with more exhaustion than hangovers

the sight was as silent as a cemetary, with graves still being dug

future was appeared bleak as machines without cogs and gears, were being prepared to take over

not the world maybe but surely our lives and livelihoods. 

 (Yikes, I have never been so negative. Time for a coffee break ) 

Julian Sara Joseph

Beginning of it all

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Ada Lovelace

 Ada Lovelace was the world's first programmer, who wrote programs about 100 years before there were computers to run them.

 

But it's interesting that even in 1842, people were hassling her about whether computers could get really smart.

And she said, "The analytical engine has no pretensions to originate anything.

It can do whatever we know how to order it to perform." Screwball idea that persists to this day.

Nevertheless, that was the origin of it all.

That was the beginning of the discussions.

Source: https://ocw.mit.edu/courses/electrical-engineering-and-computer-science/6-034-artificial-intelligenc...

Julian Sara Joseph

TIL

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TIL: Today I learned : 

 

When you have a name for something, you get power over it. (a.k.a Rumpelstiltskin principle, by Patrick Winston.

Julian Sara Joseph

It is all meaningless

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Getting to know a person, trying to understand what makes him/her tick, spending time to create room for that person in your life. It is all meaningless.

Why, you ask?

Well, in this process, you get used to that person and start expecting things to turn out in certain ways. It only leads to disappointments, when the initial enthusiasm of getting to know the person just dies out. 

Pro-tip: Never get attached to any one person. It is all temporary. It is all meaningless. 

Julian Sara Joseph

...nameless...

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He tried his best to be perfect knowing he couldn’t. 

He did everything in his power,   

from making her watch the stars with him

to talking over the phone till sunrise,

to writing letters.

 

He kept trying to be a someone for her

someone who cared for her,

someone who cheered her,

someone who encouraged her.

 

and all she did, if she did at all, was to make it harder for him

she severed every new thread he wove

she shut every door he knocked

she built walls, placing the bricks as gently as she could

 

What drove her away, she knew not

What drove him closer, he knew not

What would become of them, knew no one.

Julian Sara Joseph

Reactions 

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Maybe it was your first stage performance

Or your first job as a volunteer in the cafeteria,
Those pointing fingers, were unnecessary

Maybe it was your first serious relationship
Or your marriage that lasted just a year,
Those hushed rumors, were underserved

Maybe it was a new place you just moved to
Or your first regiment as a soldier,
Those questioning voices, were ill-timed

Such instances, there are several
In our own lives and in other's
Unexpected and even cruel,
Neither are we prepared, nor are others.

Observe, Empathize if you can,
Else take your time to react.
Everyone's fighting the best they can
To be less judgemental, let's make a pact!

Spread love and hope
Encourage one another!
With daily struggles, help cope
your neighbor, your brother.

Julian Sara Joseph

The joy of running command line scripts

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>scp 

Syntax : scp username@hostname:pathtofile/filename .

how to read syntax:  username(you use to sign into the machine)@the_machine_ip:(don’t forget the colon) pathtoFile -( obtained from running 'pwd' at the machine where the file resides)/nameof file(u should know this- or just run 'ls' ) space and fullstop (to copy this file as it is(same filename) into the machine you are currently in ) 

> cat - to see the contents cat filename.csv (prints start to finish) 

> tac filename.csv (prints in the reverse order) 
> nano - to edit the contents of the file (ofcourse theres also vim) 

Julian Sara Joseph

They say, keep it a secret till its over.

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Have you ever pushed yourself beyond your limits? (and realized those weren't really your limits? :P ) 

So be it taking a 1000 squat challenge ( Yes! I completed this on March 1st, 2018) or maintaining a streak of clean diet for years, remember you are not accountable to anybody else but yourself, your future self, for your actions and choices. 

At the end of the day, your designation or importance or worth "decided by your company/society/group of friends" is not what matters. What does is how you feel about yourself. Are you sick of your actions or are you proud of what you accomplished, however small the feat maybe, if you made it so far, have faith in how far you will go tomorrow! :)